“My body could stand the crutches but my mind couldn’t stand the sideline.”

~ Michael Jordan

Wow. This has been an interesting month so far. I wish I could tell you about all the wonderful shoots I’ve been on, but alas, such is not the case. Knee surgery has been the theme of the month so far. Weeks of trying to prep for it and now just recovering from it. My daughter and son in law decided to take vacation time to come and assist me for the first week. I didn’t think I needed it, really. I was wrong. Pain meds haven’t been helping and the doc sees no reason to give me anything stronger, so I’ve just stopped taking anything all together. This isn’t the first time I’ve had to deal with the VA no understanding the problem. I can’t say why I don’t respond like they think I should to medication. I wish I was more of a typical case for them, but I’m not.

I don’t expect the kiddos had that great of a time trying to accommodate me over the last week. I know I was being a bear. I didn’t want to stay seated or immobilized and the thought of having to use the word “can’t” for routine tasks tasted bitter in my mouth. It wasn’t until reading about my procedure online that the truth sort of sunk in to where I understood it. The docs told me I’d be looking at 6 to 8 weeks. In my mind, that adds up to half that time for me. I’m strong. I recover quicker than most. And I can handle it. 6 to 8 weeks is the general “play it safe” recovery time for the average guy. I couldn’t have been more wrong. I had so many other people tell me a simple scope of the knee is an in and out 2 to 3 week thing. Even my primary care doc told me I’d be on my feet in 3 weeks top. So why was the othopedic surgeon saying 6 to 8? Well, what he knew that the others didn’t was that he was also performing a Microfracture procedure on my knee, whereby you drill small holes into the larger pot-hole that’s already at the end of my femur. This is supposed to encourage bone/cartilage growth to fill in the hole naturally. THAT’s the part that takes so long. Weight-bearing activities such as “walking”, can prohibit the bone growth. So 6 to 8 weeks ON CRUTCHES is what’s prescribed.

I simply had no clue and didn’t understand that I’d be on crutches this long. SIX to EIGHT weeks! Wow. I simply cannot get that out of my mind. That possibly puts me all the way out to mid-March! I’ve already had to postpone two projects to the end of March. I don’t know if you realize it, but that also means postponing getting paid til the end of March. Which simply means I gotta slow down spending big time. Personal projects have also been postponed. My continued work with Panda is having to be delayed as well. And I have a couple other models whom I thought I’d be working with around the first week of Feb, that I’ve had to simple cancel til further notice.

The good thing is that I just have to get through this doing the right things. Its believed that I get another 10 to 15 years of “good knee” time, instead of what I’ve been dealing with over the last decade. Two months for 10 years. Not a bad trade. To my understanding, this 2 months doesn’t include rehabilitation time. I won’t find that out til next week. I had 10 weeks rehab for my hand last year. I read in one place where full recovery might not be expected for 6 months! So this’ll be interesting.

Karl of “Looking About” blog has reposted an interview he did of me a few years ago. After a look back on that time period, I sort of wonder what my answers might be today and if any of them have changed. Not much would be different, I presume. I think I’d answer the same in about 27 of them at least. Its a good reflection because I was definitely in two different places in 2010 vs today. I was coming out of some pretty hard months in oh-10 and even the 3 years before then. In fact, I think it may even be time for another “Interview of Self” like what I did a long time ago in 2008.

  1. What is your favorite word? Altruism
  2. What is your least favorite word? Normal
  3. What turns you on? A naked woman
  4. What turns you off? Clothes!….kidding…People who don’t take responsibility for themselves and pass the blame.
  5. What sound or noise do you love? Bacon sizzling in the morning would be the least crass answer
  6. What sound or noise do you hate? Its a tie between a high-pitched nagging voice and an alarm clock
  7. What is your favorite curse word? Fuck
  8. What profession other than your own would you like to attempt? Probably acting, but I used to dream about playing football
  9. What profession would you not like to do? There are plenty but I’m going with Nursing. I’ve got much respect for them, but its not my gift.
  10. If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates? Come on….Get your butt on in here!
  11. What is your idea of perfect happiness? Traveling the world with boundless resources and a model that I photograph everywhere, all the time
  12. What is your greatest fear? I honestly can’t say I have one. I mean, I certainly don’t want to be eaten by an alligator or fall from the empire state building but they are not fears of mine that I think about all the time. 
  13. Which historical figure do you most identify with? Galileo Galilei, just because he’s the only person I can think of who was also misunderstood.
  14. Which living person do you most admire? Other than family….Billy Graham, Chris St. James, and Bill Cosby (How can you stick with just one?)
  15. What is the trait you most deplore in yourself? Procrastination
  16. What is the trait you most deplore in others? Lack of integrity
  17. What is your greatest extravagance? I spent $400 on comic books once, but I’ve since sold my collection and not bought another since 1994, I think.
  18. On what occasion do you lie? When I have to take into account someone else’s feelings and the truth is not worth the heartache or when I need to be polite because I need the business.
  19. What do you dislike most about your appearance? I’m actually cool with myself. If I had to say any one thing its that I look mean when I am not smiling.
  20. When and where were you happiest? Christmas at Mama Carrie’s as a kid
  21. If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be? I’d be kinder to people and more understanding
  22. If you could change one thing about your family, what would it be? Me. That’s all I have control over.
  23. What do you consider your greatest achievement? Jeremy and Cassie
  24. If you died and came back as a person or thing what do you think it would be? As a person: A white female, just so I could experience the opposite of my current self. As far as a thing, I’d want to be a star just for the billions of years galactic experience 
  25. What is your most treasured possession? My faith
  26. What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery? A disapproval of yourself because of someone else’s opinion
  27. Who are your heroes in real life? My Mother
  28. What is it that you most dislike? A coward
  29. How would you like to die? Old age preferably, but if not, then on my feet in a way that makes it count
  30. What is your motto? Stay alert, Stay alive! Hooooah!